The tabby cat An An, who had been with us for 5 months, passed away

The tabby cat An An, who had been with us for 5 months, passed away (1)

April 10, 2021

An An, who had been with us for 5 months, passed away. At about 11:00 pm yesterday, it opened the kitchen door by itself and jumped from the windowsill to the awning of the neighbor’s house next door. It probably slipped and fell from the 28th floor. We heard a thump in the bedroom. We were startled but didn’t take it seriously. At 11:30, I got up to look for the charger and saw that the kitchen door was pried open and the window was open. I searched for An An for a long time but couldn’t find him. I felt something was wrong and called my boyfriend to help us look for him. We didn’t find An An, which was almost the result. I ran to the first floor and prepared to look around the building, but I couldn’t get around to the back of the building (it was the neighbor’s garden). It was raining and dark, so I couldn’t see anything clearly. I was ready to give up after searching for a long time.

I had already taken the elevator. I thought that An An might be alone in the rain, which was really heartbreaking. I was ready to knock on the neighbor’s door. It was just such a coincidence that just as we were about to knock on the door of the neighbor’s house below, the neighbor next door came back. Hearing that we were looking for a cat, the neighbor hurried to his garden to check, and unexpectedly found it. My boyfriend carried An An out. An An was half wet. My boyfriend said that he was still breathing and seemed to have a heartbeat, but his pupils were dilated and he was vomiting blood. I didn’t dare to look closely. It was already 12 o’clock. The neighbor’s dog kept barking at us. Maybe An An fell and scared the dog. I called the hospital. On the way to the hospital, I actually knew the result, but I still wanted to rescue him. As a result, he stopped breathing and his heartbeat stopped…

This is An An’s life, and ours too. The rented house has no sealed windows. Usually, either the windows or the doors are closed, but there are always times when we are careless. An An is smart and knows how to open the door. As long as there is a gap, he will definitely get in. I usually close the door, but last night before going to bed I thought of something scary and didn’t dare to close the kitchen door, so I asked my boyfriend to do it.

Although I told him many times, he always took the chance and didn’t close the door tightly. It wasn’t the first time that An An climbed up the kitchen windowsill. Every time he climbed up the windowsill, we would yell at him and beat him a few times. But they usually just sat up there and didn’t seem to want to jump down, so we relaxed our vigilance against their dangerous behavior. This is the nature of cats, they like high places. An An even sleeps on the refrigerator. He likes adventure and likes everything new. I have always raised him and Gan Gan as children and never kept them in a cage.

I think children should have their own space. He likes to sleep in the refrigerator, so I put a small blanket for him. Children should have their own ideas. He will not be stupid enough to jump from a high place, so he climbed onto the windowsill and hit it a few times and then stopped. An An is also sensible. He will meow and come down when we yell at him…

We as parents are really stupid. Of course, An An will not jump off the building on his own initiative. He just wants to jump onto the neighbor’s awning to play. Maybe he just found a small flying insect… An An, we always call you stupid An An, silly An An, but in fact we are the stupidest parents. An’an, when you left, were you in pain? Were you scared to fall into a stranger’s garden? When I think of you being in pain and scared, I feel pain and scared too.

You must have wanted your brother and sister to find you before you left. Otherwise, why did we go up the elevator and come back to continue looking for you? Why did the neighbor come back in the middle of the night and bump into us? Why did you fall into the garden of the neighbor who came back? An’an, do you still want to be my sister An’an in your next life? If you still want to be my sister, I will definitely protect your safety and build a viewing balcony for you so that you can enjoy the scenery in a safe place. It doesn’t matter if you don’t want to be my sister An’an. You are such a wild little cat, you should be raised in the countryside, where there is a big world and you can run around… I’m sorry, An’an, we didn’t protect you well. Cats have nine lives. You, a little wild cat, don’t you like me locking you up in the house? You would rather go somewhere else to play at the cost of your life. An’an, An’an, I miss you so much… My phone is full of your photos. There will be no cats to crawl into my bed, no cats to lie down and listen to me talk. Gan Gan is a fool who knows nothing and won’t even let me touch his paws. An’an, I hope you can use the remaining few lives to live well in another world…

Thank you for accompanying us for five months, An’an, my dear baby, I hope you will not feel pain or fear when you leave, and I hope you will be happy in another world! I miss you so much, An’an