.Regret, regret, regret, regret, and I don’t know why I have two (actually three).
I have bipolar disorder and rent a house near the university, but I am so lonely. I miss my Maltese at home, but she is very old and cannot move long distance, so I want to have a big dog
(well, maybe you don’t understand bipolar disorder. Bipolar disorder is divided into two categories. It is a mental illness, which is different from depression. It includes hypomanic episodes and major depressive episodes, which alternate. There will be clinical pain, which has a great impact on my life)
I looked for him on Xianyu and saw his photo. I watched him for half a month and then was hospitalized. I was in a closed ward for three days because it was too scary, so I was discharged. Two days later, I had a dream one morning that I had a Labrador, so I went to pick him up in the afternoon. His name is Beck, and I like to call him Bye-bye
(until now, his parents’ owners still like every Bye-bye post on their Moments, and I like this feeling so much, it makes Bye-bye more human).
He grew up slowly, and I took him home during the Chinese New Year. I left him at my dad’s house for four months, and my dad had no resistance at all.
Then I started to train him to urinate and defecate outdoors, in Beijing in February. For a whole month, he would wake me up at five or six in the morning to go out…
Later, he grew up and accompanied me every day. When he was six months old, I went home on May Day and adopted another little girl.
I gave her a gentle name, Leila. She was also a gentle girl. When she first came home, she was 29 days old. She was too young and started coughing when she got home. It took more than half a month to cure her. From the first day, Baibai was very gentle to her
and never opened his mouth or moved his hands. He licked her when she ate or went to the toilet, listened to her cough when she slept, and crossed the whole room to lick her nose.
When she was 60 days old, she had a fever of canine distemper for a day and a night and passed away. I held her in my arms at the pet hospital I cried until I was limp. I held her body downstairs at home. I didn’t dare go upstairs for fear of infecting the public. I cried and shouted, “Bye, Leela is dead.
” Leela was watching us through the glass on the balcony.
I made two small clothes for her and buried them on top of her.
She was basically sick during the month she lived with us. The thing I said most often was, “Don’t be afraid, Leela, mom is here.” But in fact, I was the one who was scared.
I buried her in the mountains near where we lived at the time. I didn’t bring anything with me. I just buried my lipstick and the small key card that Leela used for her rabies vaccination. It was like we were accompanying her.
Because of this incident, I committed suicide by cutting a tube through my femoral artery. After several cuts, Bye Bye was lying next to me
(correction, it was not because of this incident, it was just one of the things that happened during that period. My condition was already very unstable at that time).
He also accompanied me to the hospital for stitches. The weather was very hot and I could only turn on the air conditioner at the door. The doctor said that the femoral artery could be seen beating. I almost died.
Later I went back home. The Maltese at home has been afraid of dogs since childhood, but after a while he accepted Bye Bye.
Then I couldn’t think of it anymoreand named her 17. It turned out that bad names are easy to raise. She is very naughty. Bye Bye doesn’t like her
because she is guarding her food. Bye Bye bit her face with two deep bites and two holes on her chin. She needed general anesthesia for stitches.
But she is really naughty, a master of stealing, with a steel stomach, and she grew up in a daze
. Walking the dog twice a day, morning and evening is inevitable. Fortunately, I don’t work or go to school, so I have plenty of time, so I often take them out to play, and I have time to improve the food. I
usually steam two large pots, and then make them stand for several hours.
It is also because of them that I can’t go out to travel, I can’t stay out all night, no matter how lazy or tired I am, I have to walk the dog, there is always someone watching me when I eat, the house is full of fur, it is always demolished, the express delivery is not opened by me, the things are already ruined, and I have to collect feces and wipe urine, give them a bath, they will talk back, I will be scolded by the elderly at home, all kinds of things…
Having said this, you may have If you have already raised one, then I advise you again and again: walking one is the unity of man and dog, walking two is a multiple-pronged competition of physical and mental strength!!!
Just raising one is enough, really…
and I always feel that the second child is not good for either of them. Byeby is no longer the special favor, and 17 does not attract much attention, and they are both ignored. And because Byeby doesn’t like her, I always feel that Qiqi is very aggrieved. She really regards her brother as her God (she is afraid).
So I regret it, I regret it so much.
But he really gave me constant companionship and gave me a reason to live. I’ve
been looking for a job recently. Sometimes I can’t get up in the morning to walk the dog for the interview, so I take Byeby with me. Later I found that he is my emotional support. I was not nervous on the way to the interview, and I felt very warm when I saw him after I came out.
Now I make steamed bread for them, with a meat-vegetable ratio of 2:1, which is more delicious. The big protectors on the left and right of the steamed bread
will occasionally make some snacks, but the two big dogs can’t make anything dried… It’s time-consuming and laborious, and it’s gone in one bite, so it’s better to boil it directly. I have tried my best to bake it. I don’t even use a mold, I just roll it into a ball and flatten it, after all , it’s gone in one bite.
You can see how much Bye Bye despises me.
Honey is 11 years old today~ Sister loves you.
Our Qiqi is on her period. Bye Bye, the animal who thinks with his lower body, fortunately didn’t ride it. I don’t want to be a grandmother yet, but it’s my dream to have a little puppy!
(No, she is pregnant)
The pain in my heart will last forever. My little angel, Leila,is on her 17th birthday today
. Coincidentally, I received a call in the afternoon from Leila’s insurance company. Somehow, Leila also loves me~
Also, before, I buried Leila. The next night, I took Baibai to the mountain to see her. On the way home, someone added me on WeChat. That boy distracted me from my initial despair. Later, when I went to see her again, I found a skinny puppy on the way home. I finally caught it. I went to the pet hospital and they said it was ten years old. I thought it was just a puppy because it was very small. But the health is not good, the hospital does not recommend to raise a puppy by myself, and later I sent it to a rescue station with dog food…
I always feel that Lila does not want me to be too sad, so she arranged coincidences for me. I am actually an atheist, but I always want to believe that this is her love for me. I miss her so much.
Updated on 7.30, 17 is pregnant!
Dogs cannot use human pregnancy test sticks… I went for an ultrasound a few days ago, and it showed five!
So excited! I have collected so many things on Taobao, things for giving birth, feeding, playing, and small clothes for the puppy~ My dream came true so quickly, I am so happy~
I am in Harbin, if you want to raise a puppy, you can send me a private message~
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